The Happiness in Headstands

2011-04-04T13:18:00.001-04:00

my first two boxes are starting to grow! i can't wait to feed everyone who wants to eat!!

on the verge.

2011-03-30T23:41:00.001-04:00

So Father, give me the strength
To be everything I'm called to be
Oh, Father, show me the way
To lead them
Won't You lead me?

To lead them with strong hands
To stand up when they can't
Don't want to leave them hungry for love,
Chasing things that I could give up

I'll show them I'm willing to fight
And give them the best of my life
So we can call this our home
Lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone

time for some changes.. thats for sure.

2011-03-21T15:07:00.003-04:00

got my first round of plants in this weekend! i cant wait to plant the rest when i get paid friday! pictures to follow,

the kids have been parroting finally! only took three years for them to FINALLY talk well. love those little monkeys

i have been trying to make myself work harder then ever, to support this family, mentally, financially, and now. spiritually, been reading a suggested copy of the bible to see what the hub bub is about.

chilis simmering, back later!

victory gardens,

2011-03-11T09:24:00.002-05:00

I've started to play around with the idea of growing a "victory garden" like they did in times of war, to help supply the locals with fresh vegtables to cook with. i think it will also be a great learning tool for my boys and the little boy i babysit. Annnnd ill be bloggging about it right here, following the journey in pictures ! hopefully i can scrounge up enough money to start my seedlings soon, so by spring they will be ready to plant .. here we go!

My store my store! its here its here ! Heat Therapy Wraps!

2010-12-14T10:43:00.004-05:00

here it is. sisters from another mister boutique! I just recently started making heat therapy wraps for easing achey muscles. because lord knows at the end of the day chasing two toddlers, i need it . Other uses are soothing sore muscles, leg cramps, knee pain, post surgical discomfort, neck pain, arthritis pain, fibromyalgia pain, back pain, comforting when ill, warming cold hands and feet in cool weather, keeping food warm.

they are about 17 x4in and are filled with a mix of rice and lentils to keep you warm and cozy. i can also add lavender or dried mint for a soothing scent.

the inside is a muslin cloth, and the outside is a slip cover for easy cleaning! i have a choice of fleece material or 100% cotton.

love these little guys. and i have lots of adorable fabric to choose from! Go check it out! go ! go!

p.s. my kids have one in their laps right now. as it is 4 degrees outside and fa fa fa freezing~

santa paws movie review and give away!

2010-11-17T22:52:00.002-05:00

you can read all about the give away here! but man. i hope i win :) the boys would juts love this movie! it looks so cute

robot book give away!

2010-11-17T22:36:00.002-05:00

go on over and check her out~!! she's a great lady who writes to the point reviews, and gives away wonderful things !http://networkedblogs.com/aGfSh

Calling all Wonderful blogger mommies!

2010-11-13T22:35:00.002-05:00

my friend Shannon's little boy was born with a rare birthdefect causing him to be born without outer ears , here is the link to his whole story, she can say it better than i can. She needs to raise money to get him to his surgeries in california(she lives in michigan) can you help? even a dollar would help! and please! pass the link along, lets help her help him get his big boy ears!please help!

Good Morning my bloggy family

2010-11-11T09:07:00.001-05:00

today is a nice day. just sayin. I have the chance to go to work and make some money, the kids are happy, and i just have a good feeling about today, do you?

'Tis the Season to be Thrifty ...

2010-11-08T15:16:00.004-05:00

But definatly not lacking in quality. Shutterfly.com has come up with some outstanding new designs for their photocards this year! There are so many different styles to choose from, and at a great great price. Check out these Amazing Wall Calenders that you can pick all the pictures for . what a Great gift for under $25. wow.

The design's for this years cards are fresh and unique with lots of space for sharing our little loved ones mugs with our friends and family. This picture here is my favorite of them all with the color combination and space to personalize in the corner. Click here to direct your

self right to the design page because i know you'll want to.

Another favorite of mine is the Option to make it into a folding card, so you can add a little holiday cheer along with a picture of the happy family. How cute is that one. And the best part of all? A percentage of your purchace is donated to the American Lung Association! How's that for holiday spirit?

It's Easy to sign up at Shutterfly.com. follow the simple steps and shop away!! :)

100th post!! yahoo!

2010-11-08T10:53:00.002-05:00

in honor of my 100th post

i will tell you about my hundred dollarwish. man.. without coupons you can't get squat for 100 bucks!

with $100 we are going to attempt to do our whole xmas shopping.

its a challenge i put out for myself. considering we have like, 30 people to shop for... its a challenge.. but i Think i have come up with the perfect crafty idea. Details to follow.

p.s. if you are a blogger yourself, and you go shutterfly.com they have a special promotion for promoting them in your blog. it takes a few days for the info to be emailed to you. but you get 50 free folded xmas cards for doing it! go ! do! reap the benefits of free!

aaand a cute picture for good measure.

i'm thankful for

2010-11-02T11:22:00.002-04:00

my life, my children, my amazing husband, my right to speak my mind, naps, my amazing supportive family parents and inlaws, my job, micky mouse club house and handy manny :) fall leaves, fresh air, peace and quiet, good music, ....and my list will continue during the month, with pictures included

a day at the races

2010-08-16T08:26:00.006-04:00

so our good friends had free tickets to the races this past weekend. the boys absolutly loved it(just not the sitting down part) they dug the cool ear plugs, the cheering for the fast cars, the CRAAASH of the bang ups when the cars smashed into one and other. and Yes their heads turned in unison as the cars sped past. thanks Jess for the free tickets and the GREAT day

i am a debt warrior

2010-08-12T16:22:00.002-04:00

i will attack fiercly and bravely, even if that does mean moving home with my dad to play catch up. these major bills have nothing on me! and it starts tomorrow, with this first paycheck. let them try and crush my hopes of never having a house. i WILL prevail. dammit.

Love Was Kind

2010-08-02T09:52:00.001-04:00

not an argument between the two of us all day, we worked together, laughed together , got frustrated at the kids together. and at the end of the day still had patience with one and other and slept easy. well. i slept like a baby. he was kind, and re-primed the whole dining room while i drueled on the couch, and didnt wake me up to help him. what a happpy surprise when he moved me to my room. i was thrilled that it was done.

its a good feeling being happy and calm all day.

mission successful.

today's dare, Love is not selfish.

Love is Patient, Love is Kind

2010-08-01T10:03:00.002-04:00

day 1

the boys we're particularly trying this morning as they realized i was departing for the baby shower, but he helped keep them busy and was patient with me while i ran around like a chicken with my head cut off.

later in the evening we had a disagreement over work ethic and financial aspects, but we resolved our spat, by going to bed angry. we talked it over in the morning and realized the lack of communication ( as i banged my head off the wall) and figured out what we needed to do.

ugh. who knew love and money can be so intertwined.

today the Dare is to be Kind to one and other.

The Love dare Day 0

2010-07-30T20:15:00.003-04:00

So tomorrow, i start the Love dare. It's a program to make promises to yourself and your spouse to treat each other with love and respect. each day is a new dare that you carry out thru the forty days and beyond.

the first dare is Love is Patient.

This hits home, with a crazy household, raising two toddlers, and trying to make a barely there budget work. i can relate at how many times i have lost my temper with him, myself my kids, just life in general. It says that patience isn't just not snapping at whoever has crossed you, but a deep breath, a fresh start. its better if you can't say anything nice, say nothing at all(thanks bambi)

i tell you what, i know we have room to grow in our marriage, and we definatly have to be a team to survive my little monkeys(monsters) so, here we go.

i Dare myself to be Patient all day tomorrow not only with my husband but with myself as well.

2010-07-20T01:19:00.002-04:00

isn't it amazing how songs attach themselves to memories? i've been going through old Cd's tonight and being blasted into the past.

i lost a friend today, to an overdose so they say. we weren't very very close recently, as she had moved out of state for a while, but she was over with her daugther the other day, i lent her money for groceries, so she could feed her lil girl. down on her luck. poor hunni. go figure things were looking up.

breaks my heart. but finding all this music from shows we used to attend together is bitter sweet

oh elliot how i love thee.

Zen and the art of....

2010-07-19T14:59:00.002-04:00

getting your kids to sit still for more than an 1/8th of a meal

we've tryed extra snacks, sticker rewards, praising, pleading, distracting with toys, making their absolute favorite,

and my kids wont sit still for beans, which let me tell you, makes for fun outings, we've given up going anywhere for meals. which saves a bit of money, but darn it , sometimes i just don't wanna clean the mess up.

do any of you lovley bloggers out there have ANY ideas on how to keep the monkeys at the table. we've tried everything from time outs to early bed times, to extra special treats after if they do sit, the most they'll do is about 5 minutes. and then they wanna go go go go go.

hellllp

2010-07-18T10:03:00.003-04:00

dearest bloggy blog. im sorry for losing you. but my twins keep me so busy i barely have time to put deodorant on . yea gross i know. your still one of my first loves, but i've been focusing on my husband, he tends to get a bit miffed when i prefer the virtual world to his company, Never fear, i am back. and will be checking in regularly. love and miss you. Me

summer time and the livings easy (well spring anyways)

2010-05-27T11:41:00.003-04:00

You might find yourself starting to feel a little concerned about your financial picture today. You may be in a better position than you realize right now. But if you've recently made a number of sacrifices for the sake of others, now's the time to start paying a little more attention to your own financial situation.

JYou could really benefit from taking the time to look out for your own interests a little more at this time. If some financial developments end up causing you a bit of stress today, try to follow your own intuition rather than the advice of others.

huh. well okay then. its scary how accurate these are sometimes, lately ive been finding our budget tighter and tighter, and i know its time to make some changes, we are living WAY outside our means, but in this day and age what are ya gonna do?

i think our first step will be to not get tv for the summer, our neighbor moves out soon, and we share with him. so bye bye to that.
we planted our garden this past weekend, so tomatos here we come, cucumbers summer squash and peppers too!!!!

oh and coupons are now a must. yahoo for that.

food in my hometown that i love so dearly

2010-04-26T22:06:00.004-04:00

oh buffalo home to many food pleasures. here are a few of my favorites that i have never seen topped anywhere but here.
ahh the beef on weck. buffalos favorite sandwich. yum.
Chickenfinger pizza. you can actually hear yourself get fatter as you eat it, but im okay with it. i've never had it better anywhere then in buffalo

aunt rosies logan berry for starters, can't find it outside of western NY its AMAZING and sweet and delicious mixed with mountain dew or sprite. yuuum.

do you have a hometown favorite?

when it rains

2010-04-25T09:00:00.002-04:00

Today's the march of Dimes walk, and its pouring, oh well. we shall march on. we have beautiful pink shirts that were lovinginly decorated by Sadie's mom and Dad. and will be holding pink ballons and with that ill leave you with a song to suit my mood

2010-04-23T16:24:00.001-04:00

hi mamas, im going on a temporary blogging hiatus, as im not sure how much longer we'll have internet. don't cry. i'll find a way, even if it means updating from the phone, but hey. we're broke, like. super broke. so. ta-ta for now

playdates and mommys night outs!

2010-04-18T22:35:00.007-04:00

the last two months my kiddos have been very busy growing as people, and i have been very busy making new mommy friends! oh how life has changed since 3 years ago, when we were out every friday night and sleeping till noon on the weekends. but i gotta tell ya, i love it. i really really do. Taking Charge of the buffalo moms rock playgroup may have been the best thing i ever did for myself, i get out of the house more, actually get dressed before noon( most of the time) and the kids are happier, more social and talking more! even mike has a little more pep in his step. here are some pictures from the last month's festivities. including our friday nigth MNO where five of us packed into the back of a cop car :) yea it was a tight squeeze. think 3 mommas one preggo mom and a very nice boy. hahaha oh my stars. what a night it was. oh, and don't forget about the bull riding!!

okay time to find some more debauchery to get into for next month. update soon!

sleep..or the lack of..

2010-04-16T15:24:00.004-04:00

hey im doing a friday follow blog hop courtesy of twinhappyjen.blogspot.com

Now im not talking about NOT sleeping, i'm talkin about all the traveling i seem to be doing while im sleeping. My dreams have NEVER been so freekin crazy busy. i wake up and feel as if i haven't had a moments rest. but i vividly remember my wild night of... whatever it was we wre up to. man. some of the shenannagins i get into in my dream world. fighting alien(thanks war of the worlds) or building underground tunnels( thanks whatever showtime movie That was. ha.) or heck. dreaming about storybooks coming to life, that was totally inkheart that i watched. i'm coming to the conclusion, that i must definatly not watch tv or read before bedtime. my brain cant take it. okay time for a catnap. hopefully i wont dream of blogging. ha

2010-04-16T00:02:00.002-04:00

After all the Daytime Highschool drama that was sent my way today, i feel as if i may need some wine, and a cookie. definatly a cookie. with extra filling.

its not easy being Head Honcho of a Moms group, we have over 150 active members, and boy. some girls just wanna start shit. seroiusly, this isnt highschool, grow up. put on your big girl panties, and deal with it. its not all about who did what and who said what. if you can't place nice, scoot.

okay. back to my happy place, where there is cookies, oh, and wine. and a massage waiting. byeeee

march for me

2010-04-13T15:50:00.003-04:00

so today we've been working on our ideas for the march of dimes walk. everything is slowly falling into place for my fried Dee. She needs a good support group more than ever as her Due date approches. My heart breaks for her and her husband. I got to see Sadie's small beautiful urn yesterday nestled on a shelf with all of her little memories, quite beautiful indeed. i felt special to have her share that with me.

the march of dimes helps raise funds to help keep babies born too soon alive. i think its beautiful that this non for profit exisits to help provide medical treatment and continue to update research, so come on guys. donate, even a buck, because it could be your baby too someday.

http://www.marchforbabies.org/personal_page.asp?pp=3245706&ct=4&w=4103172&u=fellfortomorrow&bt=11

yep

2010-04-12T12:09:00.002-04:00

try it, love it। http://ashleykbrown.com/post/515875378/b-o-b-ft-hayley-williams-airplanes-mp3-via

beating hearts baby.....

2010-04-09T16:36:00.001-04:00

so what song do you have stuck in your head today?

it's a toss up for me between the song the stuffed bear at gi gis house was singing( L is for the way u look at me, O is for the only one i seeeee. well. you get the point.

and beating hearts baby by head automatica. if you dont know the song, check it out. its fabulous. for real. :)

good day sunshine

2010-04-09T11:05:00.001-04:00

Hello Freezing cold weather,

85 last weekend, 35 with some snow this weekend. Wait, what why? i didn't even get to flirt with you my springy friend, and alas buffalo has ran you out already. im Really hoping the weather comes back, as i wanted to get my gardens in this month :( anyone have a favorite thing to plant that you save tons of money on?

Raindrops, Unexplained Happenings, Naptime and Random thoughts.

2010-04-08T14:56:00.000-04:00

today the rain is coming down sideways, but it looks beautiful. the trees are reaching up towards the sky to absorb it and use it to bloom.

the boys are sleeping blissfully in their rooms holding their 'babies' and hopefully dreaming sweet dreams. im listening to the same 3 songs over and over again. and wondering what you are thinking about?

the ghost made a visit again today, pulling all of my xmas cards down. i guess they don't like my "lazy" decoratings. yes i know its april. but please don't remind me by giving me a heart attack. for real.

i've been trying hard to decide if when the boys start school they should be seperated or not, for those of you thta have met my kids, you know they are stuck on each other like glue. at this point im thinking it would cause more damage than not. only time will tell.

my heart has a few extra rooms for rent

2010-04-06T14:47:00.000-04:00

So it has come to my attention recently, in leiu of playdates and beautiful children, and things i've recently seen on T.V. , that my family is not whole yet. Yes ,Yes, i know mike just had a vasectomy, and we can no longer Physcially have children, but my heart is still not quite full yet. So Mike and i sat down the other night, and talked about Adoption, not yet, no.. the kids are a handfull right now, but when mike is done with nursing school, and the boys are in school themselves, we are both ready to accept another heart, or hearts, into our lives, Who are we to turn our backs on children that need us. We're put on this earth to love, nurture, teach children the right thing to do, but in foster homes, and in orphanages this sit, if they are not wandering the streets, fighting to stay warm.

no, no that just wont do.

so my friends, we Will adopt, we Will make a difference. and We will love them with all of our hearts.

life

2010-04-05T14:21:00.000-04:00

Things going on in my life,
1. organizing meals, cleaning, work, bills home stuff here at my house
2. organizing meals and cleaning for a beautiful woman who recently lost her husband
3. organizing and planning a babyshower
4. breathing
5. starting the new insanity workout. yea the one that looks imposible. well. im going to try it. and succeed.
6. working more with my children on their speech, as it seems to be blooming as of this weekend
7. finding the way to pay at least $100 on each card a month. (yikes)
8. budgeting, yea.. the tough one. so that we can one day afford a healthy lifestyle and a mortgage without going into shock.

(mostly) speechless saturday

2010-04-03T16:42:00.001-04:00

My LOVES (all of them )Alex

Cole

my husband and icecream(in that order)

the new tricks i taught my hair

words from the heart

2010-03-29T20:21:00.000-04:00

'Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure
It is our light ,not our darkness that most frightens us we ask ourselves
who am i to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?

actually who are you not to be?

you are a child of god
your playing small does not serve the world
there is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people wont feel insecure around you

we are born to make manifest the glory of god that is within us
its not just in some of us, it's in everyone
as we let our light shine
we unconciously give other people permission to do the same
as we are liberated from our fears
our presence automatically liberates others- marianne williamson

weekend rundown.

2010-03-29T10:21:00.001-04:00

My oh My did we have a fun filled weekend, the monkeys behaved,(mostly) and we got to catch up on everyones lives, friday night we just hung out as mike had to work saturday morning, but saturday night was a great time at the casino buffet with mike and his parents, who dress up nice if i do say so myself. Dad got to spend some time with the wondertwins, and i think he appreciates how much work i do all day long. Mikeys brother took up babysitting sat evening and off to see some old friends we went.

Sunday i was brave and had ten little kids running around here at the crazy house. thats 100 fingers to get into things, 10 mouths to screech, and 10 smiles playing nicely together, while the parents got to better know each other. no accidents, no tears,(mostly) and everyone was pooped out by the end of the dance party. boy i am starting to get the hang of this mom thing. especially finding the balence between mom and me

only 3 months till my little cousin comes to stay for the summer. it'll be great to have her here And ill get a preview of teenagerdom

2010-03-23T22:54:00.000-04:00

and so the story goes::

Once upon a time, there was a mommy who worked so hard to clean, that she ended up spinning in full circles, getting dizzy and overwhelmed and decided going to sleep was the better option. good night.

flight of the monkeys.

2010-03-16T20:15:00.001-04:00

Have you ever witnessed a flock of birds take flight, i mean Thousands of birds at once? it truely is remarkable, the air looks as if its full of energy, shifting and moving in sync, but never losing sight of where each set of wings are.

i wish life moved as slowly as that

today went great, until it didnt. came home had a great walk with the kids, my shoulder started to hurt, i got cranky, mike got cranky to match. the kids got crankier, alex got his hand pinched in the door. and now everyones sitting on the couch ignoring each other. yay.

maybe tomorrow will be seamless. maybe.

did you know??

2010-03-11T14:59:00.000-05:00

thanks for the idea mrs b!!

ask me anything! come on i know you've all got questions. ill answer honestly , honest.

March. make a real difference

2010-03-08T21:40:00.000-05:00

you know, i've never thrown myself into anything crazy, not in a long time. i havent shown terrible interest in anything unknown, but this week, ive started collecting for the March of Dimes, why? because it makes a huge difference to some tiny people. ones that cant help themselves, that are vulnerable and weak, but fighters none the same.

did you ever wonder what good the money you spent on that coffee or that bag of chips could Really do?

i tell ya what. with that money, i can help babies born to early LIVE , to grow up to be teachers, peace keepers, world leaders.

but only if someone like me finds the time to throw myself into it.

We are doing the march of dimes for a friend whos baby did NOT make it, in Sadies memory. We will walk because that is all her mommy can do to try and make it right. it gives her a little hope to hold onto, knowing that maybe she can be someone elses angel.

come on guys, join me in the march of dimes just by clicking here, donate $5 $1 even,in your kids name, and know that you helped make a difference

are we really happy with who we are right now?

2010-03-05T15:01:00.000-05:00

no new pictures to throw on up right this minute, but however i am going to TWO awesome concerts in the new few months( ya see.. this mom/grownup/housewife/responsible sensible me needs to be caged sometimes to let ME back out.. so i'm going to see paramore with my sister in columbus in may, and in april the hubbs and i are going to see Alexisonfire. oh. im so pumped. they are fantastic live. FANTASTIC. i only wish they were touring with .Moneen. still ...sigh. okay.

on a mom related side, the kids are on the mend. they had a lovley playdate today, minimal tantrums over who got the choo coo or truck. :O)

a lesson in being mom

2010-03-02T21:11:00.001-05:00

almost everything can be fixed with a bowl of icecream

Friday Already?!

2010-02-26T14:49:00.000-05:00

oh my word am i tired, what a long day its turing out to be today.

Last night was my first Mommys night out! it was superb! We had Chocolate Covered Strawberry Martinis, and tasty apple cream cheese sammiches. boy oh boy. it was fabulous to be out of the house, and with people that understand being a mom. i can't wait for the next one at Taste in East Aurora. (pictures to follow) :) as for me.. its naptime.

Too Cute Tuesday

2010-02-23T16:02:00.000-05:00

The boys had their first big kid play date at the mall today. they had a ball. as you can see. they fought over the girl :O)

2010-02-19T10:35:00.000-05:00

My boys Turned two, never have i ever been prouder, they can talk so much more , climb higher, yell louder, compete against other for attention, feed themselves, dress(sort of) themselves, watch a tv show for a solid half hour. and give real hugs and kisses.

oh i made quite the pair, and oh, i never knew i could love anything so much, until i loved them even more

Double the pleasure
Double the fun
Double the chaos
with 2, not just 1.

Double the groceries
Double the food
Double the clothes
They both outgrew.

Double the treasure
It's only just begun
The joy they bring together
will never be outdone.

Happy 2nd Birthday boys Mommy and Daddy Love you Very Very much

a blog award to brighten up my day

2010-02-14T18:36:00.001-05:00

thank you ode to motherhood for the lovley blog award! goodness knows i could use some sunshine latley
too help spread the love i'm nominating you lovley ladies! enjoy

Put the logo on your blog or within your post,

Pass the award onto 5 bloggers,

Link the nominees within your post,

Let the nominees know they have received this award by commenting on their blog.

Heather at the adventures of crazy mum

Sarah at The flight of the moodys

a pretty rockin chick on my new favorite blog( for the pictures of course , who doesn't love cute kids Discovering Wildlife

Khira at confessions of a housewife

and Michelle at Not according to plan

Enjoy spreading a little sunshine girls!!

2010-02-14T10:08:00.001-05:00

Good morning blog world, i only have a few moments, but just wanted to update,

Nana is doing better, yesterday they had her up and out of bed for a while gaining some stregnth in her new bionic woman style hip. itll be a bit of recovery thats for sure.but here's to hoping its a swift one.

im waiting for my husband to get out of the shower so i can head back out to the hospital to check on her today.

2010-02-10T18:39:00.000-05:00

Why is it we always get the GOOD with the BAD?

i called my mom today to tell her all about my new job, and she tells me shes taking my nana to the hospital because she fell down the stairs and probably broke her hip.

talk about a debbie downer. im waiting for my husband to get home so i can join them at the hospital. i promise ill update you all on it soon

please keep her in your prayers, she'll need them the poor daffy woman.

got a job

2010-02-09T23:59:00.000-05:00

got a job got a job job job

fancy pants, super duper cool job

job i've been waiting years for

can you tell im giddy?

YAYAYAYAYAYAY

rain, or... mommy bRAIN

2010-02-08T20:45:00.000-05:00

Rain by Shel Silverstein

I opened my eyes
And looked up at the rain,
And it dripped in my head
And flowed into my brain,
And all that I hear as I lie in my bed
Is the slishity-slosh of the rain in my head.

I step very softly,
I walk very slow,
I can't do a handstand--
I might overflow,
So pardon the wild crazy thing I just said--
I'm just not the same since there's rain in my head.

this is how i feel today. like things are sloshing around

can ya blame me?

hey sandman, where ya at?

2010-02-08T13:44:00.000-05:00

Today, i would really like the boys to simmer down and take a nap. I'm still getting better from whatever the heck i did to my tonsils by trying to get yucky stuff unstuck. yea. great idea. and i would kill for a minute to myself, well.. maybe not kill.. but risk my kids losing their voices just to get a minutes peace around here.

Anywho. they're both SCREECHING at the tippy top of their lungs at the unjustice i have caused them by placing them in their very nice very comfy cribs with their doggys and a fan going. HOW DARE I provide them with the nap they need to prevent a nuclear melt down around dinner time, cuz no mom in this house will dare give them a nap at five pm, only to have them raring to go at say... 11:30 pm. nope, not me.

So if any of you are good at astral projection, can you please mosey on into their rooms and tell them"hey, it's alright, everyone needs a nap, the world would be a much better place!" cuz if I go in there it's all over. We start from square one.

i'll let it go for 20 minutes to see if Cole takes a chill pill, or exhausts himself.

thought for the week

2010-02-07T20:35:00.000-05:00

Keep what is worth keeping and with the BREATH OF KINDNESS blow the rest away.

2010-02-07T18:44:00.001-05:00

well i missed a post yesterday

and dont have much to vent about today other than some people are so involved in themselves that they dont believe you when you say your sick. i didnt feel like being around a party full of people all evening, and i wasnt about to bring the kids to chase either. kiss my butt. im sick. it's nothing against you, unless of course you want my flu or whatever the crap this is.. cuz seriously... you can have it.

there. i feel better

the dreaded time out

2010-02-05T21:04:00.000-05:00

today alex was in a mood, the kind of mood where ya looked at him and he came out swinging.
he swung in fact, and clocked his brother right in the dome. well.. i cant let this go on, so i place him in our time out chair. not only was he outraged at this, but his brother was sad that he was in trouble, so he sat at the foot of the chair, and they both cried... nevertheless, they both sat there until the time ran out.. alex got down, and his brother smacked him back. nothing like delayed gratifacation... and we repeat the process.. four times.. sigh...

2010-02-04T14:48:00.000-05:00

a quote i came across in a blog today really struck a chord for me
"be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle"- Plato

i've been trying today to think about the positive things in my life, and how much tougher we could have it even when i want to cry and scream about the bills being a little late, or not spending money on those shoes i really just Have to have. every person on the street has something going on in their lives too. So come on everyone, let that person into the traffic line, pay for a coffee, say Thank you when someone holds a door, and hold a door for someone else. one small act of kindness could really change someones day, because they too, are fighting something, no matter how small

whats crackin... or... they can now open the fridge

2010-02-03T13:28:00.000-05:00

the mighty egg comes with built in armor, but it was no match for hurricaine cole and alexander.

oye.

songs to suit the mood

2010-02-02T21:15:00.000-05:00

Fought away the sleepless hours Unsettled dreams will make you keep You can paint them all your brilliant colors Just don't fall off into the deep Happiness is not a burden Oh, how the pendulum will swing I have felt the ground, I've seen the seeds Out of which grew golden wings

you ever have one of those days where you can quite figure out the mood your in? it goes from overwhelming exhaustion, to sweet, to bittersweet, to melancholic , to content but with tears in your eyes?

for some reason this song covers that, not so much just in the words, but the melody, its called everblue by mandy moore.
its pretty fantastic. now hold on just a minute, im not going soft on ya, i just love love love this song. and to be honest with you. mike likes it too. so there. besides, shes my girl crush. for real. and i'll leave you with a pretty picture. because, you might have a crush on her too.. its just waiting to happen. come on jump on the band wagon

who's Your girl crush?

28 posts in 28 days

2010-02-01T20:58:00.001-05:00

hey all! its been a lil while since i last posted anything real

today we're going to talk about the crazy people at the gym
you know the ones, who after45 min of insanly fast paced jogging on the eliptical, have yet to break a sweat, while me personally am struggling to remember to breathe, and trying to remember my name.

those people who have been up and at it for a while before you even walked thru the doors, and are still going far after your legs are rubber and your arms are jelly

i mean good for you , but come on... stop making us look bad. ;)

then again if you look at it from a mom's perspective and break it down

folding laundry 40 calories,
chasing kids after they get into the catfood, 50 calories,
picking up an indecicive toddler umpteen times ,123 calories
running from the back of the house to the front a gazillion times looking for said toddlers, juice cups, missing cellphone, remote, carkeys, cookie... you get the point... 87 calories on a low day.
dancing with two 30 lb toddlers on either hip. i dont even wanna know how many for that.. tho i do know i get a hefty work out cuz i can't walk for hours after without a wince.

okay so.. maybe i am that crazy person.. just at my home gym instead.

BABYALLDAY>COM

2010-01-25T14:26:00.000-05:00

Hey ALL!!!!

i want to let you guys know about an awesome new baby apparel store called BabyAllDay.com

they have awesome onesies and toddler tee's with fresh snappy designs to fit your bundle of joy's attitude :O)

personally i love the one that says time out is for losers and oh my gosh if the new design that says junk in the truck didnt make me spit out my milk!! , and the just hatched onsie is Great for any new arrivals!!!

Come on guys and gals! check out babyallday.com

oh, and if you use coupon code rthom25 you get a whopping 25% off your order!!!

the store owners are friends of mine and it would be
Great!! if you could help me help them!!

to the point today

2010-01-21T14:23:00.000-05:00

new beginings start soon. i can't hardly wait.

2010-01-10T15:53:00.000-05:00

Never has their been a more precious bond than between a father and his sons

this makes me melt. seriously. could they be any cuter?!

done gloating.

round round round round i get around...

2010-01-05T11:29:00.000-05:00

i sit here in tears this morning, as my kids rip apart my living room, destroying all my hard work, there's just too much stuff to contend with here. when they go down for their nap im going to be doing some serious downsizing wiht their toys. they're just not all necessary now. and i doubt they'll even notice. we have a whole toy box and three laundry baskets full of stuff. not to mention the riding toys and trucks and cars. ARRRUUUGGGGHHH. if i step on one more matchbox car ill scream. again. i think cabin fever is setting in

2010-01-01T11:13:00.000-05:00

i promise to listen more, talk less
learn something new every day
truly pay attention to what im putting into my body
be amazed at all the good one person can do in the world

and not treat dissapointment like failure, its just not the same.

more later when im more awake.

2009-12-26T18:59:00.000-05:00

the day after christmas, everyone was content
noone was thinking about the money they spent
the boys played on the floor with their trucks and their blocks
mommy lounged on the couch with her new slipper socks

the kitchens a mess, there's garbage under the tree
but everyones happy especially me
i got to spend time with the family, you see

and thats mostly what christmas means to me.

2009-12-20T22:19:00.000-05:00

Two faces to wash, and four dirty hands
Two insistent voices, making demands
Twice as much crying, when things go wrong
The four eyes closing, with slumber song
Twice as many garments, blowing on the line
Two cherubs in the wagon, soaking up sunshine
Work I do for twins, naturally comes double
But four arms to hug me, repay all my trouble.
~Author Unknown

2009-12-20T13:57:00.000-05:00

so, even my husbands jeans are tight today, WHAT was in those COOKIES??

yum. thanks everyone who came to the cookie exchange, it was loud rowdy and hetci. but i loved every minute of it. especially where the boys came off their sugar high, and passed out at 7:30 instead of 9

i think everyone today has a massive sugar hangover.

time to wrap the PRESENTS!!! YAY!!!!!

my favorite red and green decorations for the house

2009-12-15T20:31:00.000-05:00

my handsome red haired green eyed baby boys!

tis the season

2009-12-14T15:22:00.000-05:00

gift (gft)
n.
1. Something that is bestowed voluntarily and without compensation.
2. The act, right, or power of giving.
3. A talent, endowment, aptitude, or inclination.
tr.v. gift·ed, gift·ing, gifts
1. To present something as a gift to.
2. To endow with.

this holiday season has brought about a change in me, infact in many of us.
I've helped touch lives, and in return felt a warmth grow inside my heart thta on a day to day basis, now feels like it may be too big for my chest.

i've recently given away most of the boys baby clothing, some of their accessories that they have out grown, and with it. a small piece of my heart to every family that recieves the gifts that were given to them.
i find no need to hold onto that part of the past(save for a few teensy baby outfits that i put in their hope chests)

oh the feeling of giving, i think i take more pleasure than anyone i help out. i almost feel selfish, for helping out those in need, to satisfy a part of me that sometimes feels a bit lacking.

i've found a calling. don't expect it to stop.

i can hear the bells...

2009-12-11T10:33:00.000-05:00

or maybe its all the punk kids with snow days, who insist being outside in subzero temperatures and blistering wind. yep. thats what im hearing. kids, where ARE your mothers? grandmothers? babysitters? legal guardians? its COLD out there. thus the NO school. HELLO???

ah. to be a kid and be immune to cold again.

ill stay snuggled warm inside in the meantime. :)

the tree is up the house is decorated, the kids are trying to dissasemble all my work, ah. its xmas time. let us indulge.

look. my kids on redbull.

2009-12-07T11:45:00.000-05:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MqTH5ll1StI

hahah the boys re running around my kitchen in full out circles screaming at the top of their lungs.. if i could locate a camera it would be perfect. alas, he house has once again swallowed something whole. im sure it will be spil out sometime near mayday, or perhaps that every tricky selfproclaimed(mommmy needs a minute or a vailum) day.

okay back to zookeeping.

true friends are always together in spirit

2009-12-04T21:31:00.000-05:00

Everybody longs to be part of something, to be accepted as an individual, into a group. don't get me wrong, i have a great existance as a mother and a wife, very exclusive rewarding groups. but i used to find myself needing, wanting to be so much more than the labels ive been given. that is, until recently when i found one special word that has so many levels of meaning, - FRIEND-"A true friend is someone that knows the song of your soul, and
sings it back to you when you have forgotten the words."
these past few months, i have found an amazing group of friends, who have each others backs without even blinking an eye. when i asked them to participate in helping out one of our own, they NOT ONCE asked , why, but How can i help you and how soon can we do it. I truely am Humbled by these woman, who have helped me find a part of myself i knew was there, but could not seem to make shine. i find myself finding a touch of color in things i never payed attention to and i and definatly looking towards the good things instead of the bad. i find gratitude in things i would of passed off, like the ability to feed my family, to clothe them, that we are able to keep one and other safe, and even the little things like, someone letting me in line in the drive through.

thus i digress. i want to Call each and every one of you woman out. and not with names, you ALL know who you are.

Love you, all of you, whether we've met or not. you ALL have a special place in my heart. and for that im truely greatful.

2009-12-01T21:45:00.000-05:00

you know what . i really have nothing to say. how weird is that...

Oh the Weather outside is frightful..

2009-11-24T09:05:00.000-05:00

but the fires so delightful, and since we no place to go... let it RAIN?
Okay not that im complaining even an ounce here. but Wheres my beautiful fluffy clean snow?ive got the boys snow suits, coats hats mittens boots, you name it we got it.. and the boys are still able to play in hoodies. what gives? nothing kicks off the holiday season like some of the crystaly fluffy stuff. Instead, over here in buffalo. the snow capital of the east, it drizzles and looks darn right miserable outside.

i'm calling shennanigans on the whole situation.

now excuse me while i turn my christmas cd on and make cocoa and cookies.

psh.

2009-11-22T10:56:00.000-05:00

gooooooooood morning world, after an exciting dream session with vampires, my sexy husband, and climbing thru tubes and whirlwind mazes, i find myself much more exhausted than even before i went to sleep. ah to be alive in my dreams, is what i TRUELY live for.. i just wish i could visit a coffee shop while amongst my REM sessions.

i've found myself longing for adventure. a new adventure. lets see what i can come up with now. oh. and if someone wants to donate the Cullens house in the movie twilight... that'd be pretty much tits right now. i'll even do the windows

we're off to see the wizard

2009-11-21T08:32:00.000-05:00

Getting ready to go for the day has never been so....slow. Finally an Outing with Most of my friends that have children, all together, in the same place..... What are we crazy? Well ..a lttle but thats besides the point. We're brave, and happy to be parents. We love seeing our children grow and learn and interact with one and other, it gives us a glimpse into what they may be like in the future.
Today i get to see friends ive known a long time, meet new friends, and get to know better some wonderful woman whom i don't get to see too much...

don't you worry.. pictures to come :O)

Can we just talk about something...

2009-11-20T14:46:00.000-05:00

So today, in the good nature of my self bettering program, i decided to give some waxing a try. my legs were cake. Time consuming but minimum pain.. so... i decided to give my lady town a shot.. HOLY MOTHER OF #@#$#%#^ OWWW.

if i ever meet the bitch that invented the brazillian wax, im going to slap her from here till Sunday. Of course, being the renegade that i am. i slathered my top half with warm drippy wax, thinking 'ah this too will be cake' WRONG. pulled the first strip off and saw stars, the feeling reminded me slightly of when they took the tape off my c section wound and pulled a staple out with it.. mind you i had five more strips to yank...

someone get me some tequila, and some ice.

2009-11-07T09:33:00.000-05:00

Today the sun is shining. its beautiful out. i think it might very well be a better day.

the monkeys have yet to fling poo or get into anyting substancial yet. although they did take the paddle down and are scolding each other with it.. ( do i really look like that when i yell??)

i'm going shopping today for my secret santa gifts. and im SO!!! excited to shop for little girls.

oh. crap. gotta go. monkeys !! NO!!!

waiting..

2009-11-01T18:48:00.000-05:00

for thursday to come, waiting for this sonogram is killing me!

it sucks not to know the outcome of what might, or might not be happening inside my body. i guess only time will tell.

keeping happy thoughts is tough right now tho. let me tell you.

im supposed to be taking it easy, doesn't the doctor know there is NO taking it easy with twins around? im exhausted. and when i overdo it i start to cramp. its horrible. its either neglect my kids, or neglect my body...

decisions decisions..

help

use somebody cover.

2009-10-10T09:45:00.000-04:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n267QwfTrOM&feature=player_embedded

this is just beautiful by the way. enjoy

times they are a changing

2009-10-10T09:14:00.000-04:00

as are the seaons, it finally looks and smells of fall out there !the boys are outgrowing their size six shoes and fit in the coats my dad got them last year. their still a smidge short for two and three t pants, what can i say, they're so much like their daddy.
things are changing for us too...we've started looking at homes, just to see where we stand. and i suppose we're doing alright. but there has to be a way to make it. so... im going to start selling jewelry and continue to vamp up the hair business!!! who wants to be pretty?!!

note: pretty includes me, from this day on i promise the world i wont leave without lipgloss!!!!!!

Financial Duress...

2009-09-29T12:14:00.000-04:00

oh. the joys of money, or lack there of. on one hand i get to spend LOTS of time at home with the family. But i just CANT seem to get a hold on our budget. we try to cook and do things at home and be money savvy, but somewhere its going awry. It's hard to cook and clean and balence checkbooks and get everything paid on time. And if the moneys not there, it's just not there. My husband does a beautiful job of working hard and briging it home. but the bills are higher than the income.

So... here's my vow to do better this october, to have at least $200 in the bank left over so im not pulling my hair out and crying to my mommy.

Does anyone have any ideas? ANYONE!!

Procrastination.

2009-09-24T13:09:00.000-04:00

May as well be my middle name, and the internet a tool of lucifer. Every day at naptime i have a to do list a mile long. What do i do? Sit on the internet! This weekend the computer is going OFF OFF OFF,( except to pay bills, and sneak a peak at my blog, play on photoshop, oh and catch up on face book..) ...see what i mean. HELP is there a therapy group or something i can join? meanwhile my kids get slightly ignored and the house gets(stays) messier. okay. for real. im off to clean up. Really.. REALLY!! ... after i finish reading those 6 other posts about people i dont really know and Their problems with cleaning up too....

2009-09-22T12:26:00.001-04:00

My car broke twice today. Awesome.

First day of..

2009-09-21T22:04:00.001-04:00

FALLing ..in love with my husband over again

FALLing apart at the seams

FAlling for my innervoices yelling, "don't clean the house the knomes will do it
overnight while i'm sleeping"

FALLing over all the toys left out by my darling monkeys

FALLing down the rabbit hole

FALLing through the looking glass, seeing my life as it really is,FALLing into place

happy first day of fall..

i wonder what this semester of life will bring?

the crispness in the air, bonfires, leaves changing color, boots and peacoats, my heart almosts bursts, can't you hear it beating in time with the wind? i think it's changing.

Your Smile...

2009-09-16T11:53:00.001-04:00

Just Melts me Inside

Makes my Heart Sing

Your curosity makes my heart swell with pride

Who knew that these two little miracles could change the very existance that i know?

Cole and Alexander your a day away from 19 months old!!! wowie! where has all the time gone?

Alexander, at 19 months you say shoes, more, juice, all done all gone, bye bye , love carrots and apple juice, pretzels and Hummus, love to cuddle and dance , spoke first, walked second, and steal the hearts of anyone you come across

Coleybear, you say uh oh like its your job, you climb and run and jump and bounce off anything you can climb on to. LOVE the cheese off of pizza, sneak soda pop when were not looking, and love to share with your brother and make him feel better when he's sad.

Could i ask for sweeter kids? i think not!

How to survive a sick baby

2009-09-14T21:18:00.000-04:00

#1 Have a strong connection with your husband, i swear we keep each other sane. He's my rock. and i am his Xanax. lol.

#2 Laugh so you don't cry at the 13 hours of Whining Crying Med refusing hot sweaty little boy

#3 Have a little Faith, i don't care to whom or what you pray to. but when there are no other options, you know i'm there.

#4 Never Ever take your parents for granted, boy to they come in handy when your panicing.. thanks Mama papa dad, Mikeand Ellie

Xander pants was a little feverish on saturday, by sunday morning he was spiking a fever of 103.7 and refusing anything to eat or drink. We took him into the pediatrician who decided he may or may not have Strep Throat (he's to young for it, It's hard to say, Blah Blah Blah..) She proceeded to perscribe an antibiotic and suggested lots of rest. He did pretty well all day afterwords, today on the otherhand... Awful. didn't want anything AGAIN to eat or drink( we got some gingerale down him, by putting it in a doctor pepper bottle. haha took a nap with him. woke up.. 104.2 WHAT!!! Isn't ibuproferin and antibiotics supposed to make him feel better? my tired, quiet, lethargic , listless baby boy layed their and wimpered. After half hour of scrambling to do any and everything i could possibly do to make him better, he snapped out of it and was suddenly dancing and eating rasins.

Phew....

2009-09-10T14:51:00.001-04:00

Not having a computer sucks

2009-09-07T22:11:00.000-04:00

Home from Vacation and....

2009-09-07T20:52:00.000-04:00

I'm Totally and Utterly Exhausted.. isn't that how it's supposed to be though? And to think, the kids didn't miss me at all! It makes me sad to think about how much they are growing up and how much more independant they are now. They barely looked up from their toys when i walked in this morning. (sniffle)
But....our mini weekend away was grand in itself. i enjoyed the heck out of spending a night away with my Knight in Shining Armor, We battled long wait lines and conquered the fastest coasters, all in a days work of course.. and don't forget the barbaric Turkey Leg! yum yum yum yum yum. We got to eat whatever we wanted without having to share or have baby fingers snatching and running away. And.... i got to enjoy most of my coffee while my father in law chased the kids around his yard for the last bit of the morning.

We got home and there was a Labor day parade at the foot of our street so we strapped the kids in the stroller and scooted on down to enjoy the togies(horses) and the tuck tuck (fire trucks) , and get belted with gobs of treats rained down by each parade float and member of the election boards yes they were out shaking hands and kissing babies, lol

after about an hour and some sticky candy smudged tear stained cheeks, the boys went down for their nap...and didn't get up for....3 and 1/2 hours!!!!!! thanks babies. this crazy lady needed a little longer to rest.

ill post up a beautiful picture of my three favorite men,as soon as the computer stops being uncooperative.

Good Night Neverland.

..Grounded...

2009-08-29T22:02:00.000-04:00

Some days i spend all day dreaming myself out of my home, into the world around me. Dreaming of the possibilities and places i could be, should be , would be if i did not happen to be tied down by that little thing called my life. I often think that i could be sailing in Greece or working as a color artist in London or France, living up to my "potential".

The last few weeks i found myself dreaming of my life, at home with my family, and i couldn't be more "at home" in my thoughts. Something inside me lately finds me very much rooted to the spot that i have made into a home. I am truely in a Love affair with everything that is my life , i am passionate about my friends , family, and duties as a wife and lover. I feel the pull of mother earth with every whisper of the changing seasons. It grasps at every new feeling, new lesson learned..holds onto every pearl of laughter let go by my darling monkeys. I feel Change happening, and its telling me to live and grow with everything that is ...ME..

Oh What a night.

2009-08-29T11:48:00.000-04:00

So girls night went fabulously as planned! It was wonderful to be away from the kids. Every mom deserves a small break to just be free , not have to watch her mouth and just talk a bout everything. Well let me tell you, my girls know how to make ya feel gooooood. the trip out to ski country was beautiful, there were No dead deer on the road( they tend to bring my mood down a smidge), singing to all of our favorite old songs,and the food and Drinks were AMAZING. It's so much easier to connect when you are an hour from home. oh, and we decided on an incentive trip to.... VEGAS BABY!!!

Dinner the other night went amazing. ill put the recipe and pictures up soon. Thanks to my girls for a great and memorable evening

oh.. and just because they are cute...Roley poley Coley

Captain Alexander pants

See?? adorable

Channeling Julia Childs...

2009-08-26T20:41:00.001-04:00

Alright folks, brace yourselves, i'm going to learn to cook....(insert hysterical laughter).
I bought my first real cookbook and as we speak my husband and i are going through it trying to find the ones with the least instructions. so far the scallop burgers and the chicken and bean roll ups with avacado dipping sauce are at the top. two nights a week im going to try my hand at a new recipe and let ya know how it goes. Wish me ( and my family) luck.

2009-08-26T10:57:00.001-04:00

Mike's best friend moved across the country to florida today. Life won't be the same with out dan kraft around. Thanks for being a great friend dan.

Why?

2009-08-25T13:00:00.000-04:00

Why do people want to hurt each other? Seriously tho? WHY? So many of my friends have failing marriages, and their husbands (soon to be ex) husbands do so much to hurt them, to make them feel inadequate, to put them down and hold them there until they can no longer breathe. it hurts down deep in my soul. Marriage is a partnership you surrender to, you vow to get through everything Together. Mistakes happen, they are learning experiences, but to try to make someone feel like they are nothing? Kudos to you men. you know who you are, you REALLY are OUTSTANDING

2009-08-24T17:52:00.000-04:00

While i'm cleaning house the boys are out grabbing a drink. ;o)

Not me Monday

2009-08-24T12:15:00.000-04:00

My boys did Not dump my coffee on the laptop, not my sweet little angels. My son did NOT kick me in the face while changing his diaper then grab a hand full o goodness and wipe it into the rug this morning. My son did NOT pull the garbage over and dig thru for a snack while i was in the bathroom, goodness no, not him. My calm darling boys did not just throw blocks all over the living room and then hit me with a toy golf club. that would just be absurd. im so glad my boys do Not behave like that. who could ask for more.

At last..

2009-08-24T09:08:00.000-04:00

Okay, i know i told myself i would never EVER use the tv as a babysitter, but does ten minutes to drink my tea and actually get my kids to eat their breakfast really hurt them?

They LOVE LOVE LOVE Yo Gabba Gabba, i think its the silliest show ever, but they sat on the couch with their lean pocket breakfast and stared, while finishing every last bite. Nothing smeared on the couch , walls, carpet, each other, nothing ground into the curtains!! Woo. For those of you that haven't been around for meal time, my kids have a slight aversion to their highchairs, unless youve dumped chocolate or crack in front of them. They scream and cry and throw food on the floor. Awful stuff. so for them to be quiet? And Eat? it's a miracle!

and the verdict of the day is.......

2009-08-23T21:40:00.000-04:00

“The best thing about the future is that it only comes one day at a time.”Abraham Lincoln

Today was an extraordinairly ordinary day, thank goodness. Work was nothing special , the kids were their usual selves, short of their crankymonkey pants. Heather and Dan stopped by like they always do... I woke up thinking'for the love of all that is holy, let today be just a smidge better' Ah its good to know prayers are answered.I'm holed up in front of the computer with three or four windows open the T.V. on in the backround and not a care in the world, for right now at least.... Maybe i should quit while i'm ahead. Goodnight Neverland

2009-08-22T22:42:00.000-04:00

he knows me too well, sprite and cheesedip for a bad day gone worse, is now much much better. god i love my husband. he's even running back to the store for not stale chips. le sigh..